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[calientra]

Well, I feel that the time has come for me to make this public, seeing as how some of my friends have found out about it already. So, I guess I deserve this.

Many of you know about my past... but I don't think anyone knows the entire story. Now, ever since coming to the furry community, I've tried very hard to be a good person, and to not do anything to hurt my relationship with those who have befriended me... but nevertheless, I have hurt two friends who were very dear to me recently, and as a result, I have hurt a lot more of you. I'm sure those who know know exactly what I'm talking about... and those who don't, if you want, I'll discuss this privately with you. But let me say right here and now, in front of you all, I AM very very sorry for what happened. I am doing what I can to make the situation right again, though it will take a lot of time and effort, mostly on my part. Why did this happen? I'm not sure. There is a part of my mind that I have never understood... and this part sometimes takes over and I do things that I know are not right... yet I do them anyway, and at the time, I don't seem to worry about the consequences. But never before has it hurt anyone but myself. Those of you who know me best know how badly I berate myself and have such a low self esteem.. now you know why. I hate myself for what I have done... but I'm willing to face up to this now. I just hope that those involved will someday forgive me and will let me be a friend again... if not, so be it. I would have things go back to some semblance of how they were before. Maybe if I could turn back the clock... but that's impossible. So, to the two I have hurt, and to those it directly involves now: I am so very sorry. Hate me if you must, dislike me if you will, tell me to never speak to you again, I will do so... but I'm doing what I can to make it right, at least in a physical sence. The emotional and spiritual end... I cannot control. That is up to the individuals involved. But, I do hearby promise and vow, this or anything like it will NEVER happen again.

Comments

[cloverr.livejournal.com]

Taking responsibility for our actions and making ammends is the best any of us can do. Good luck. *hugs*

[spikedpunch.livejournal.com]

Well, you still got me on your side hon, no matter what may or may of not of happened. ::hugs::

[ramalion.livejournal.com]

For me...you're willing to fess up to what you did and make amends. That's the important thing and you're still a friend of mine.

[tygermoonfoxx.livejournal.com]

I'm not aware of the exact situation, but I do know about your past and some things about your probable future that maybe only a few other friends have realized. I admire you for the ability to recognize that you did something and to try and make amends. Everyone makes mistakes but it takes an especially fine person to take responsibility for their consequences. There's nothing you could do that would ever offend me beyond friendship.

[jugularjaguar.livejournal.com]

No idea what is wrong or what you did. I would apologize what you did and not do whatever it was again. True friends will forgive, (though some slower than others) But you need to think about what you are doing if it is wrong and stop doing that. Friends can only forgive you so many times for your same errors in judgement.
If you can remove yourself from that temptation.

I hope this helps and Merry Christmas.

[tahamaki.livejournal.com]

Butterscotch -

First off, yes, I do have knowledge of the situation and all parties involved. I will not make any judgements or assumptions, and will leave it at that.

That being said, I'm glad that you realize the consequences of your actions in all of this, and you still retain my friendship.

Hun

[tygercowboy.livejournal.com]

Spike and I are giving you every opportunity to make things right.

I know that you know that things could have been taken a lot more legal direction but we didn't want that because you are still a friend. Things are strained between us now...and will probably be for a bit just because of the situation we have been put in. But there are no closed doors here. You have every chance to make things right and we are hoping beyond all hopes that does happen.

Hugs

[kibbles.livejournal.com]

No idea what happened, really anything that's gone on that I would consier scandalous.

You gotta love us clueless types, eh? ;)

[vesuvius.livejournal.com]

I haven't heard anything about this, save what's here. Looks like you've gotten plenty of comforting comments since you posted, but I thought I'd put my paw in, too. I don't know you incredibly well, but all I've heard is good things (apart from my own little drama) It'a always best to go straight to the source and straighten things out rather than let them fester into something that would hurt more people. Take care of yourself, you have friends that care.