Deep Thoughts. With Calientra.

[calientra]

I've been thinking about a lot lately. A lot of deep searching thoughts about some rather interesting, and possible to some, some rather disturbing issues.



First off, why am I the way I am? I know I am kitsune, and I know I was created to be the companion of a far older and wiser kitsune, to be her soulmate and lifemate. Yes, you can all pretty much figure out who made me now, and why. But... why? I still don't know.

I guess that is the universal question: Why Am I Here?

Maybe the ultimate goal in life is to try to answer this question, each one for themselves?

Wow, I'm like going all philosophical now. Weirdness abounds. And we all know I am VERY WEIRD, but that in and of itself is an awesomely good thing, because I surely would be bored insaner still if I was just NORMAL.

Secondly, what do kitsune feed upon? I have been so tired lately, so worn out spiritually... I feel the almost desparate need to feed. But on what? I know I can feed on energy, either from other beings, or sometimes from natural sources, like thunderstorms or strong winds. And I crave sunshine. And lately... I feel the instinct to drink blood. Am I part vampire?

Comments

[fyremane.livejournal.com]

love, we are all weird, all in our own ways. Some weirdness is shared. I think ivespoken before on how i can draw energy from places and events myself, like going certain places, and i dont get tierd till after ive gone away from the place.

and you are here to love and be loved!

[wolfmare.livejournal.com]

Love and be loved, what else is there? I've yet to ever find a more worthy cause!

[wolfmare.livejournal.com]

I have no idea what kitsune feed on. For me sun, wind, music, sex, love, laughter, the energy that a happy crowd of people make... Those are all food, they give me the strength to get through the leaner times. I can feed on any of them, anytime.

For me though, I guess I specialize a little. Sex fuels me more then any other source. Even when I'm not an active participant, the energy two people can bring into being is a buffet, when other sources are more hand-to-mouth scraps.

Veering slightly off-topic, I wish I'd had that figured out while we were still together. It might have made things work out better at the end. Ah well though, I still think things worked out for the best in both cases, even if it was rough getting there.

*hugs and channels some energy to you*

[spectravixen.livejournal.com]

why are you here? to learn to be my companion and to love
Kitsune feed upon energy and sexual energy is the most filling and as far as the blood thing goes its a feral thing.
it is lonely for me spiritually and that is why i need an equal i can be with and love. yes i know your only a four tail but you spirit is as evolved as mine love
i love you and can't wait tell the moment we are together again


Always remember... I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and gosh darn it pepople like you and that's... ok

[ms-hunter.livejournal.com]

Nothing wrong with a little vampirism between consenting individuals :]

[shockwave77598.livejournal.com]

Well, I get energy from laughter and strong thunderstorms.

[angelmacleod.livejournal.com]

Well my energy is from a battery so to speak that has infinite energy. I have discovered that very rarely am I that tired anymore. I am constantly on the go and I doing what I can to aid others. I guess that is what drives me but I am truly lucky having my purpose revealed years ago. Spreading the knowledge of love is top priority :)

:)

[shastzi.livejournal.com]

Maybe not so weird, Cali.
Try using the Qi energy source.
As the ancient Chinese said it is: "The breath of Heaven"
You already have an affinity with thunderstorms, wind and sunshine (star light) so you may be a shoe in for harnessing it.

It is the blue-white energy of the goddess herself and there is more of it than the energy output of all the galaxies in the heavens.

I always have a surplus so I give it away as much as possible and use some for myself to recharge on.

You'll never be worn out spiritually again. :)

How do you use it?
Simplicity itself. All you have to do is invite it in, let it wash over and fill the room or house you are in.

It's always there in unlimited quantity, but you must remember that it is there or it wont do a thing by itself.
Another perk. Evil things fear it more than paper fears a fire.
You'll never need to fear anything again because it is your protector as well.

Try it and be forever renewed!
Ask Becca. :)

Hope this helps.
Be Blessed.

Truly,
Shasta T. Cat =^.^=

[ryokara.livejournal.com]

*hugs*