Deep Thoughts. With Calientra.
Feb. 19th, 2009 07:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
calientraI've been thinking about a lot lately. A lot of deep searching thoughts about some rather interesting, and possible to some, some rather disturbing issues.
First off, why am I the way I am? I know I am kitsune, and I know I was created to be the companion of a far older and wiser kitsune, to be her soulmate and lifemate. Yes, you can all pretty much figure out who made me now, and why. But... why? I still don't know.
I guess that is the universal question: Why Am I Here?
Maybe the ultimate goal in life is to try to answer this question, each one for themselves?
Wow, I'm like going all philosophical now. Weirdness abounds. And we all know I am VERY WEIRD, but that in and of itself is an awesomely good thing, because I surely would be bored insaner still if I was just NORMAL.
Secondly, what do kitsune feed upon? I have been so tired lately, so worn out spiritually... I feel the almost desparate need to feed. But on what? I know I can feed on energy, either from other beings, or sometimes from natural sources, like thunderstorms or strong winds. And I crave sunshine. And lately... I feel the instinct to drink blood. Am I part vampire?
First off, why am I the way I am? I know I am kitsune, and I know I was created to be the companion of a far older and wiser kitsune, to be her soulmate and lifemate. Yes, you can all pretty much figure out who made me now, and why. But... why? I still don't know.
I guess that is the universal question: Why Am I Here?
Maybe the ultimate goal in life is to try to answer this question, each one for themselves?
Wow, I'm like going all philosophical now. Weirdness abounds. And we all know I am VERY WEIRD, but that in and of itself is an awesomely good thing, because I surely would be bored insaner still if I was just NORMAL.
Secondly, what do kitsune feed upon? I have been so tired lately, so worn out spiritually... I feel the almost desparate need to feed. But on what? I know I can feed on energy, either from other beings, or sometimes from natural sources, like thunderstorms or strong winds. And I crave sunshine. And lately... I feel the instinct to drink blood. Am I part vampire?