Long time, no posts.... that's about to change.

[calientra]

Hey everyone. I'm still alive... bet some of you were starting to wonder. Anyway, a few changes have gone on in my life as of late. Here's a list of them in no particular order.

1.) I have moved again... but this time just a few miles... to LaSalle, IL, where I am sharing a 2 bedroom apartment with Kodiak, aka hazardous_roo. Now, some of you know that I have had issues with him on occasion, mostly at AC this year. Trust me, this move is at best temporary and mainly for financial reasons, plus it's closer to work and gives me much more needed living space. So all in all it's for the best at this time.

2.) I am in the process of cutting back my LJ friend's list... so if you suddenly find yourself off of my list, it's not that I don't like you or anything, but mainly because I do not really know you and I have far too many people listed currently to keep up with them all. If you want to remain on my list however, please, let me know by leaving a post here or emailing me.

3.) I have the desire to create or have created for me a fursuit of my alternate character, Caramel the Skunkette. Some of you know her on FurryMuck, some do not. It just feels to me that it is time to bring her to life though. Not that Butterscotch will ever not be a part of me, but Caramel is a part of me too and she has the desire to come forth now too. I'm in the process of planning her construction with a few friends and fursuit creators... now just having to wait on money to come together for me to pay for her for them to begin work.

4.) I do like my job at Cougar Industries where yes, of all things, I make and test industrial vibrators. However, I do not think this job will be a life long career for me. I just don't know what I want out of life as far as a career goes... but factory work is not the best thing in the world. But for now it's a good enough job, and I'm sure I'll be there for a year or two for now... if I don't kill Kodiak in the process. Yes, we both work at the same place, though since I've been working there, he has been relegated to the position of "Painting Biatch" which he hates with a passion. Oh well, can I help it if I have more experience as a machinist than he does?

5.) I have been having online relations with two very sweet ladies in recent months as most of you know... cloverr and yotewah. I am not at all sure where these will lead in the future... some intimate times I surely hope will occur at both MFM and MFF... but that remains to be seen. I know one thing though... I have really been feeling lonely RL a lot lately... lonely as in having no one to call my own. But I seem to deal with this pretty much ok. Having such great friends as you who I know RL does help incredibly. And after two failed marriages, I maybe now realize that maybe I am meant to be alone for the most part? I don't really care for that thought... but it may be my fate.

So... that's what has been going on for me lately. A few other minor issues have reared their heads, but nothing really worth mentioning.

I had great fun both last weekend in Peoria with my furry friends and again this past weekend in Glen Ellyn with other furry friends. Next weekend I have no plans at all... and then the following week is my favorite furry con... Mephit FurMeet! Come on down to Memphis and have fun with the vixen and the skunkette.

*vixen and skunkette hug you all*

Comments

*gives snuggles and strawberries*

[sslaxx.livejournal.com]

I don't think you're fated to be alone - I don't think anyone is. I'm pretty sure you'll find someone, dear.

And good luck with the moving and housing situations, too.

And as for a Caramel suit... murrs

Re: *gives snuggles and strawberries*

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

Well, this housing is much better than the one room place I had in Oglesby. I don't know how long I'll stay here... maybe a year, maybe less, maybe more. It all depends on how life treats me.

Yes, the Caramel suit will be very MURR... that's exactly how I feel about her too. *grins*

Of course, pictures to come of her when she's finished.

Re: *gives snuggles and strawberries*

[bubbycat.livejournal.com]

I wonder what a Liska fursuit from that Mynarski Forest comic would be like? I can imagine it dancing with caramel butterscotch, samantha, and all the other fursuits at the conventions :)

[kibbles.livejournal.com]

Sounds like you are really moving on a lot of things -- and it is when these things happen, is usually when love comes and smacks you upside the head. Sounds cliched but I've seen it happen WAY too many times (and experienced it myself) to disagree.

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

Yes, I finally do feel that some things are finally coming together for me. I did miss seeing you at AC however, and I felt bad for that. I missed seeing a few others there too, including one who I once had deep feelings for... a certain bat that you also know on LJ... oh well.

And I do hope that you are correct about how love may come along and smack me upside the head.

[kibbles.livejournal.com]

Maybe next year I will stay overnight.

Not sure, I know that next month we are taking a paycut in this family, and no raise until the FOLLOWING September. So I may wait until 2005 to really do AC right! :D

[tygermoonfoxx.livejournal.com]

Stay with Simtra and I....we'll be sharing with another gal from New York City (pagan, she's cool, her name is Maxime). It would quarter your room expense.

[kibbles.livejournal.com]

That would be really nice -- I guess we will discuss it closer to AC!

(Have to see if next year if even the $10 bus ride is affordable. I dont know if Dan will be working steady, or what, or if I will find some part time work, and so on. I think we will be ok, though.)

[rainbow-lioness.livejournal.com]

I was thinking about you yesterday and was thinking how much I miss talking to you online a hellva lot, and if fact you were in my dreams last night. I am so glad your still alive!

*snugs her fave vixen muchlies*

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

I have surely not forgotten you or Massassi... or Salith as the case may be.

RL has been a bit busy for me as you can see... but I do think of you often. And I must admit, I am curious as to this dream you had concerning me.

Dreams

[rainbow-lioness.livejournal.com]

The dream was that me and salith made it to some Con and there was all the furries.. I dont know who all was there but the three of us was just hanging around chatting and hugging.. it was nice..

[spikedpunch.livejournal.com]

Been wondering about you since I don't see you on line much. Am glad your doing ok though. ::scritches::

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

Yes, I'm still here. Seems as if RL has kept me busy lately since AC... not to mention planning for MFM. Hoping to see you again sometime... would be nice if it were before MFF...

Not alone forever

[crim-ferret.livejournal.com]

I don't think you are going to be alone forever. You're too nifty for that. Just don't be suprised if the right person comes along when you're putting the least effort into looking. I guess that's sort of a cliche, but it sure seems to work that way a lot of the time.

Re: Not alone forever

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

Me? Nifty? Well... I don't know what to say. Thanks for the compliment. I do wish I had been able to attend that party to see what you described in your own post a while back.... that would have been very interesting to me.

You missed out on the Antique Tractor conversation that Hartree, Robert and myself had about 2 AM the other night too, after you had gone home. It was an amazement to them that I had knowledge of this subject... guess I can still surprise a few furs at times.

And as far as what you say about how the right person may suddenly come along, I hope you are correct. I'm waiting for them...

Re: Not alone forever

[jinxtigr.livejournal.com]

What happened to me was I just got my life together the way _I_ wanted it, and then gave a friend permission to tell a friend of his about me, and bam- much demanding work ensued, but for a change I wasn't trying to be anything other or more than me, and the work turned more productive and useful than I've ever known it to be.
Yes, I guess I stopped looking. I also stopped trying to fit myself into imagined situations and ended up fitting someone into the situation I have now, in which I have a lot of time to myself.
I figure if that can happen to me, it must happen easier to normal people :)

*snugs a vix and skunkette*

[karou-windstalk.livejournal.com]

missed you on furry, friend

Re: *snugs a vix and skunkette*

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

I know... I've been very scarce there lately too.. I'll have to fix that shortly. Was great getting to meet you at AC... and I hope to get to see you again someday soon.

*makes Prima kidnap you and bring you with him to MFF this November*

[jonnorthwood.livejournal.com]

Glad you're doing well, li'l vixen, and Gods but it was nice to finally meet you.

As for MFM ... *sigh* ... maybe next year.

Re: the skunk suit ... mrawr.

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

It was very nice to finally get to meet you too... just wish it had been for a longer period of time so we could have gotten to chat more.

Was hoping you could have made it to MFM.. but I understand why you cannot. I'm hoping all does go well for you in the future however. *HUGS*

[redvixen.livejournal.com]

*blinks at the double post* okay, one post for the vixen and one for the skunkette??

*grins* I know what you mean about not being able to be on a lot lately and my best wishes for you for whatever you finally decide to do *is still figuring out what she wants* I'm sure things will work out in time, it's just annoying not knowing when that time is. *hugs* I'm still keeping you on my friends list cause I like reading your posts and finding out how you are.

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

The other post had one extra item listed... for those who I consider my closest friends only.

I have kept you on my list of friends as well. I feel a kindred spirit in you, though we have never met RL and who knows if we ever will. I do consider you a friend and I care about you too. *hugs*

[redvixen.livejournal.com]

*blinks tired eyes, rubs them and carefully rereads the posts* ah!! I am tired!!! I didn't even notice *hugs* thanks, I feel the same and hope to catch you on icq sometime soon =^-^=

[jugularjaguar.livejournal.com]

For someone who works at Cougar Industries it really sounds like you are denying your feline roots. Besides if you made a Cougar suit you might be about to get some appearances as their mascot!!!

[sylverfox.livejournal.com]

If it comes to pass that you are alone for the most part, which honestly I don't see happening, then keep in mind the times that you have been able to share with those you love. No matter what happens in the future, no one can take those from you. And it's more than some of us have, believe me... :) *hug*

[isfacat.livejournal.com]

First, moving is always hard to do. But at least it's closer to work, so that means less gas money.

Second, keep me on :) I like to read about the Adventures of the Vixen... whoa... great title for a book... *thinks*

Third........... murr. That is all.

Fourth... I'm not going to comment on "test[ing] industrial vibrators". :-P

Fifth: You'll find SOMEONE eventually. Hey, look at me. I've survived about 3 bad relationships, all which either ended up with me injured, emotionally scarred, or stronger. You'll have bad days and good days, and I know that there's someone who's doing the exact same thing somewhere. You just have to keep hope and keep looking.


So, I guess I'll see you at MFM, then? And I won't be limping this time! YAY!

[tigerpaw.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* Glad to hear that you doing well. *scritches* see ya in little over a week.

[wuffy1970.livejournal.com]

I can totally relate to you being alone in real life. I can't remember the last time I have actually experienced a hug. Oh, well... Enough about this lonely wolf!

I was wondering why you haven't been posting in your LJ. Hmmmmmmm... Hehehe!!! It is great to see ya posting again! :o)

*HUUUUUUUUUGS*

[bluefoxxie.livejournal.com]

Always lepe the best view out that is capable to keep. I wish you hte best luck of finding a nice place to reside that isn't stressful or roach infested. Be safe and don't be skeered of der foxie :)

[ex-prima237.livejournal.com]

JAYSUS!!! Every time I think I have you pinned and can send
you that check for 100K you move! *facepaws*

^.^

[kinkyturtle.livejournal.com]

You need to have yig-ped said to you by a turtle. Therefore:

Yig-ped.

That is all.

*snugs*

[delphi-of-clf.livejournal.com]

Should things not work with the roo and ya need an out, I've always been telling friends to just get ahold of me. I might not yet be employed, but there's no reason to go for more than three weeks w/out a job in this town. Everywhere you go there's a help wanted sign. I'm just in the point of time where EVERYONE"S applying. So as soon as someone stops loosing my app, I should be able to work again ^v^..Sure that's not reassuring, but I offer the same to anyone.

Good luck with your situation, your job, your lady friends, and your suit to be :>, as it sounds like together, that's an awfull lot to be juggling at the same time.

Take care :>.

And hey, get to know us if you want to :>, I might not be very talkative, but I'm a great listener.

[bubbycat.livejournal.com]

Hi. welcome back.Good luck on the Caramel skunky costume :) I've never got a hug from a skunk fursuit yet in rl at a furcon, gee maybe Caramel skunk would be my first skunk hug if i get to go to another furry con soon :) hehe i kid.I was just wondering what kinds of outfits and stuff Caramel skunk fursuits will be wearing.gotta go now catch you latter and have a good morning byebye for now.

bummer

[brianblackberry.livejournal.com]

you took me off your friends' list..=:\

Re: bummer

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

*adds you back, not realizing you did read her LJ*

Sorry.

[foxcutter.livejournal.com]

Cloverr is a cool lady, I've know here off and on for a while, I'm good friends with her ex, though there's no hard feelings between she and I.

I don't mind being droped from your friends list, I guess that means I just have to talk to you more. :)

I like the fursuit idea for Caramel, I know of her casualy, and it sounds like fun.

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

I didn't know you cared. Sorry. I added you back to my friend's list just now. Glad that you do read the scratchings I put out here at times.

[foxcutter.livejournal.com]

Ya, you're cool, and I liked talking with the times I've run into on ICQ. :) I do hope we can talk more.

--Fox

*whimpers*

[tygermoonfoxx.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'd wondered where you'd dropped off to.

Um, not to be a bitch or anything but....this isn't going to result in a lot of drama at MFM is it? Freyja and I can't handle a lot of stress caused by people arguing or conflicting with each other. In other words....am I going to be an intrusion? I need to know so that I can either cancel the trip or make other arrangements.

And I need your current address; you've moved toom any times for the one I have to be accurate at all.

Re: *whimpers*

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

No, friend... this is not cause for worry about drama at MFM. I need and am aiming for a drama-free con myself. So you have no concerns there. Kodiak and I get along fairly well most of the time... mainly at work does our differences of opinion come into play, as he has a tendency to be a bit opinionated about subjects that he really has very little knowledge of. But this will not occur at MFM, I promise. You are a guest in our room and will be treated with the courtesy that that demands.

My new address is below for your use. Hopefully I will not be moving again any time soon, as I'm sick of it too. Trust me, it's still not easy, even when all that I own will fit in two car loads.

Butterscotch Vixen
c/o Mike Moore
1058 10th St Apt 4
LaSalle, IL 61301

815 252 1558 cell phone

Sweet things...

[sslaxx.livejournal.com]

...headed your way! When? Well, not this weekend - off to cheer a friend up! Then bills come in grrs at one downside of your own place - so September is looking good! Greene&Black's white organic chocolate (and more!) will be winging your way.

updates his address book

I hope you don't run into some of the crap my landlord tried to pull on me billswise.

snuggles

[nikonraccoon.livejournal.com]

*pounces and snugs a vixenfoot*

[cal-foxx.livejournal.com]

Yay for tiny raccoon snuggles on my footpaw. Wishing you could make it to MFM... but I know you'll be at MFF as I am holding a space in our room for you again. *carefully hugs her small but very wonderful friend*

[nikonraccoon.livejournal.com]

It too bad you live a good 7 hours away. I wish you were closer.

Long Time No Post and Alone

[alexanderkatz.livejournal.com]

Vixen, I met you last year at MFM, and just fell for you. You are an amazing Fur. I really enjoied seeing you this year at MFM, and I was more than happy to give up my dance with MyLadyWolf so you could dance wiht her. You made a very lovley pair on the dance floor. One thing to remember when you are thinking about being alone most of the time is this: The world that you see is always from behind your eyes, you are only as alone as you choose to be, as Lovers and Friends pass before your eyes cherish those moments and Love them as best as you can. Your next Friend is on the way now, and they have simply not arrived yet so keep your eyes open.
And as for Caramal Skunkette, well I already have a Serious thing for Vixens but Skunkettes are Da Bomb. So be sure you dont leave me alone with her...*grins*