Getting my life back into some relative order now...

Ok... lots of changes for me RL in the last few days... So, here goes... through a chain of events that were directly my own fault, I now am not moving from Illinois to New Jersey, and I have now lost the love of my life over this... but I will be strong and survive, somehow...
So now, I have no job... this totally sucks. I am trying my hardest to find work... any work now, just to survive... and I am also applying for any assistance programs I can find, until the time comes when I am self sufficient again... I am making several hard decisions about my own RL situations too... those of you who know me know what I am talking about... but let it be known now and forever, I blame no-one but myself for what has happened to me. I will remain forever Butterscotch, the vixen on FurryMuck, or as long as FurryMuck remains.